DESI

I wish I could leave all judgments behind. I guess its the shit that comes out because your thoughts have been fed by the society. Yes, you can think that you are free to choose but then some thoughts have been engraved over time. -- A friend visited from Denmark and we showed him Delhi. I went with him in a scorching sun and saw Red fort and Jama Masjid. He told me that he thought India was much more chaotic till the time we were showing him the better places. But with old delhi, he got the flavour, was almost run over by an auto, was baked till he was absolute red and saw cows, pigs, horse, wrong side driving, being asked for more money, everything. People thought I was visiting as well till I opened my mouth and said, hein bhaiya chaltein hoo.. ----- Phir vahee shaam hein..

INDEED OR IN NEED

A friend of mine was chatting with a girl. The guy was working, staying alone and chatting with girls was a good time pass. They became friends over a period of time and the girl, staying in the same city asked the guy what he thought about a 'live in'. The answer was, 'no, I only wear LEVIS'!!!!!!! Now that's a pity and hilarious at the same time. ------ The other day, I was watching television and realized that Robin Williams committed suicide. The same guy who seemed so happy and funny on television. The protagonist of the movie Dead Poets Society, which we were showed by an Irish Brother as an orientation program. I loved him in the movie and he was an Icon for years. Well, the guy committed suicide. Shows two things about the guy, one, he was a brilliant actor, hid his emotions well and played what he had to. Two, in the end of the day, when you are all by yourself, no matter who you are, where you are, what you do, you have to be comfortable with yourself, very hard a task indeed. ------ in need for peace.

WASTING TIME, PLEASE DONT READ

How do you really know that you are not wasting your time. The term 'waste' only emanates if you are comparing that moment to something else. pleasurable, personal, perfect. The fact that your are comparing it to something perfect, makes you depressed. Or the other thing is if you are really wasting your time as you had something to do which affects your life, personal or perfect, then you may really be wasting your time. But then what is wasting time, really, anything which trickles your brain is not waste, reading this post is not wasting your time, writing it may be..

ONE LINER

International Yoga Day, one day after all these so called 'days' which makes sense. The muslim society is criticizing the move. Well, disease never comes as per your religion. ----- London Grammar, Hey Now..makes me and my daughter dance..never mind the lyrics. --- Tennis and Swimming is on. I am so bad at tennis, been loosing all the games. Got some youtube lessons. Thanks to that my wrist is not hurting anymore.

CAR NEW OR OLD

I am thinking of buying a new car. My old one is old, not for me though. I feel good in it but people tell me that its time to buy a new one. Even my dad told me that. To counter that I told him about his elder brother in the US, a well acclaimed scientist who is still driving an Old Honda with paint coming out and stickers of Princeton and Save Tibet pasted on it. He just laughed. I know he will never ask me to buy a new car again. Neither can I go to Princeton or Save Tibet. -------------------------------- I have pulled the rug. I waited for it and when I time came I pulled it. Wait was a pain and heavy on the heart. My heart is ok, I have been having super refined oil. Enjoyed seeing the face turning red. Fuck you ass hole.

SUMMER HEAT

Sometimes life is all about sitting and feeling the moment. Not think to not to think. In such moments things stop, you dont feel the heat, dont hear the sounds, dont remember anything. All you can hear is your soul, endlessness, perfectness, calmness, its a vast Ocean of stillness. The only thing I can hear that time from the outside world is my daughter giggling. ------ Well, we have shifted houses. I am planning to swim and cycle now. Yes, the marathon is coming. Yoga is there as well. Well, I sound like a health freak. ------- Marijuana, you are the best and an underdog. These plebians will never understand you. Jai Bholein. Boom Shanker.

GOOD NIGHT

I have realized that there are somethings in life which are important, very important than a good night sleep and that is money. But then rich people rave about yogis and babas who can show them the path. I met one from London a couple of days back. I looked him in the eye, and asked a few questions. He answered and seemed great, ORDINARY? don't know. I certainly know my stinking rich friend wants the peace this man has, but I am not sure he cant live without money. I think in these stage of life I will barter money for a few good night peaceful sleeps.

MUSINGS

So, I was absolutely right about AAP. There could have been only one way this could have worked. just wait, it will go worse. ---- I life has changed this year for the following reasons: Less drinking Yoga three days a week for one hour for the last 4 months, i feel better. Yoga means union and I understand why now. I want to go independent and see what I can achieve. I will write about it in days to come. Kya hoga, kuch nahee hua to tajurba hoga.. Still, feel great. I will change houses again this year and the last, my daughter is one plus now and she says Daddy and hugs me. Nothing in the world beats that. I think I will remember some of these days with her now, when I die.

Couple of Things

A couple of things. One I am surprised with the win of AAP. But then I voted for them the last time they came to power. I hope something good comes out of it. I remember paying less electricity bill for straters. Never mind Modi, you just need some more Yoga and introspection. The 10 lakh suit was not worth the risk. I think now it would become impossible to catch an auto which can ply by the meter. Some politician can now knock at my house as I play loud music. The government would be run like an NGO and shall soon get dirty when the real power and politics creeps in. Politics is dirty, the satya vachan, you get a million gharoos, all you will be able to do is dispense the dirt from one place to another. There is no drainage system. Two AIB what a show, I have done those shows a million times with friends, talking dirty and cracking nonsensical nonsense dirty jokes. If you are stoned it helps and is even better. The thing got viral like no ones business. I just wanted to see how stars react when they hear stuff like gand, lund..blah blah.. But then lets not forget, these things are good not being recorded. Its like having sex and recording it, and making it public, sick to say the least. Well, Kim made money out of it and I think AIB is going the same way. Three We completed five years of marriage. Looking back, we have come a long way. Thanks to my lovely wife for tolerating me the way I am and have been.