Ofcourse I want to drive a fancy car and never think twice about money when I have to shell out a little more than what what the situation demands..ofcourse I want to go to Mar bella and sit there and relax for days and days to come and never think of any thing else but my libido..ofcourse I want to have the best Ice and party in London..but then all this needs money..

I will be rich as I wont die trying and I mean it..I trust my brain for that and the humbleness which if missing, can drag you to the streets without a rag to sleep on..

Sweet revenge is spoken then;
In the twilight it is gone.
To living lies with no escape,
Lord, I would rather be alone...

Do I care..I really dont..maybe 4 years down the line i would have..as things go more complex in life, your basic thoughts of illusions become more certain when you tend to meet some people who make an effort to know you..you wanting to know them is a different proposition all together..am in DRUNK..ofcourse I AM..

RECLOSSE

I am not into politics but I have been a part of the countless discussions where I have discussed it with some hard core friends getting into extensive discussions based purely on the basis of politics. And so I have seen friends jumping from a 800 in into a 5 Series in 2 years time and discussions when you know the cabinet minister and his lust for europeans which can give you a tender to serve your generations to come. I dont find myself lost in the discussions and have very valubale inputs but then its not me when I am sober. Alcohol can make you talk wonders..

And so now, I am propagating my concept of a restuarant. Its been there for some years now but now I have to propagate it to get partners and the political nexus i shall need to run it in the place I want it to. The finance with my investment being the surplus and I think its the same with my friends as well, shall have to sufficient to provide us the gestation period till the time the place is running. The interiors shall be done by one of my very close friends you happens to be an artisit and has promised me the best of her stuff...i like her creativity.. I talk about it when I am drunk with friends with the topic never going light (I make an effort to do that)..So, I have worked on it..politics..chef..view..money..music..labour..local support..etc etc..I am not too sure if I shall be able to tap in the dollars but it shall be a dream come true even if I have my first dinner there with some invited guests..

Money coming out from this adventure shall never be an issue..its more about my a resturant which I had dreamt about and never found when I was a traveller..

Things change so quickly..I think in the end of the day its all about perceptions..I was taught in a mediation course that the outside shall always remain the same while the inside keeps on changing..if we can make the inside constant, the outside shall always remain the same..a good thing enters our ears or through one of our senses and enters our brain to produce chemicals to which we react..if we keep observing our breath and the millions of energies in our body which are created every nano second to give a cumulative effect called emotion to which our brains react, then rather then reacting to it if we just let it pass, we shall come out of the thread of creating emotions and notions which do not exist..or maybe does..

Much easier said then done as doing it can take a life time and essentially it shall depend on your karmas..the peace is immense where a lotus shall shine in your heart..

My mind makes me percive things which are not true and I know it but then I am just human..need a life time to understand it and another life time to get it right in my next life incase I dont end up burning in hell..

I want it in this life and I want it now..I am human and I have insatiable desires to top it all..