35 and breathing

I am supposed to be depressed, heart broken and even have the liberty to run naked on the Delhi roads shouting anything I want. I am 35 now, 5 years older then our veteran actor Jitender swallowing 30 plus energy tabs, and I am sure hell with not break loose if I have a mid life crisis. To be fair to my healthy lifestyle of smoking and heavy drinking from School, I think my mid life started a couple of year back. Nevertheless, I am trying to come to terms with the fact that I cannot dream that I will do this things which I always wanted to, one day. I am 35 and that one day is not going to make me younger. If I have to do something, I have to do it today. yes, today.. -------------------- Dreamt that I am dying and then I am dead and then I am moving towards this light. Felt the same way I did when I joined hostel the first time in school. Fear, excitement and the prospects of being free, from whom..that I still dont know. ------------------ I love my 8 months daughter. She makes me feel the best and in love all over again.